Thoughts on Work and Money

i dunno why i've been thinking of wanting to play poker for extra cash. it's completely worthless. i do not need the couple hundred dollars for all that stress and torture it brings me. also, i always have money i'm not spending, with the current pay im receiving i can easily adjust to an affordable lifestyle. my only concern is the free-time i have. that being said, i do not know why i keep thinking about money. i absolutely hate it.

on my job. i feel like im completely wasting my life in this training program. i am not learning anything from it because the lecture videos are so horribe. i am not developing any new skills in my professional field and i feel like once training is over, my company is going to expect me to do crap that i have no understanding of. which is bothering me right now.

i also want to do more programming. i dunno why but i have this urge to go back to programming my games at home. its too bad im so beat once i get back home that i just end up watching tv and crashing. im gonna work on getting back into programming in my freetime.

Situation with the Females

so i been dying to meet some girls. haven't done anything progressive towards those goals. i've messaged about 10 girls on POF, none of which replied and half of which were deleted. haha. i can't really blame them, some of them were ridiculously hot and out of my league and prolly deleted my message once they even found out i was asian. but i've also messaged some decent girls in the 5-7 range, waiting for some replies.

might look to apply at some asian dating sites, ugh asian girls are so damn lame.

the summer heat is getting to me.
honestly i've been contemplating whether or not i should escort it up.

Last Weekend at Modern

had a blast at modern, was out with K_P and T_K. drank an ate din din at hooters. got a serious buzz on. went lounge Modern and got shit-faced. was insanely fun, lots of grinding but drank to much to really remember anything or really even meet any new people for any lasting effect. it turned out to be one of my few blackout nights.

i'm not really sure why it was so fun. prolly all the dancing an the club environment while being wasted. could also be the fact that i was able to let loose all the stress i had pent up from being bored at work.