*More on this girl I'm talking to.
So heres the meat of the topic....
theres this girl i knew for a long time, since lik 5th grade or whatever from church. i got to meet her again at a bar while going out with K_P_. she's a bartender there an to me she's damn attractive for a korean girl. so im tryin to holla at that.
bak when around 6-7th grade she had a huge crush on me but i was punk ass then an always pushed her away from me. but now that we all grown up, im tryin to hit that up, na mean?
that nigth at the bar i got wasted cuz it was kevin's friends birthday an like they kept passing shots all night even though i didnt really wanna drink that much. anyways, we talked for a good bit an she pressed to change numbers which we did.
afterwards... wtf! HUGE afc shit going on with me, AA out the bitch. i was scared as hell to call her. for lik 4-5 days i been tryin to call her an kept putting it off for the day later. i couldnt beleive this, this girl has me as high value lik hell an even had a crush on me before, but now that i place that high value on her an want her, im scared as hell to talk to her an risk losing her. obviously not takign the risk wont gain any rewards, though, so after struggling for some stupid ass fear i call her up an boom. phone didnt get picked up. ok, i dont even kno if the number is right.
then i called her up last sunday, an she picked up at her friends house. she wanted to go bowling with me an said she'll call back with directions. after 2 hours she didnt call back, so i call her an she said the group of friends she was with didnt wanna go, she was waitin to hear from some other friends before calling me back... ok.... so they all canceled, we ended up talking a bit. now here i dunno why, but i didnt think of jus us two going out an doing something, maybe grab a bite or whatever. well too late now. she told me she off work only thursday an sunday. which sucks cuz im off sat/sun. cant realyl do anything with her fri-sunday.
last thursday i was so busted up from work to go out, gonna hit her up this sunday an see whats up.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
First Week of Work
*More on my experience working fulltime again. Specifically for SABA in training...
Here's the meat of the topic now...
Goodness, work sucks. I'm hoping maybe when i get used tot his 9-5 schedule and actually start doing something useful, that it'll not be as bad. but right now im going through some ridiculous training...
first 2 days was jus plain ol sittin on a chair for 8 hours doing jack. couldnt go around web surfing on the laptop they gave me cuz it'll look bad on me if the boss finds out. and the boss randomly checks up on us, "doing nothing"...
lately i finally got some training lectures recorded on the computer that i have to watch and its been just 6 hours of watching training videos all day. and most of the stuff dont even make any sense and jus seems kinda useless. all in the all the job kinda sucks. everyday i come in from work im beat and worn out. dont got the energy to do anything. all i wanna do is watch TV for a lil bit then head to sleep cuz of the headache from all the information overload and sitting. yes sitting is stressful. its lik sitting in an airplane on a 12 hour flight with nothing to do really, its boring and extended boredom = stress for me. i'd rather do some productive work than do nothing on my ass.
all these bad things aside, there were some interesting lectures where i learned more about the business aspect of the company and their product and the type of problems they look to solve. im sure things will turn around once i actually finish training and do some real work.
other pluses, the work environment, although its a cubical, theres no real strict schedule, i can go out whenever i want really for lunch as long as im not busy and stay out for 1-2 hours. eventually after training i can work at home alot too. i'll be able to work about 3-4 days of the week at home if i want. another plus was there's a guy name K_ i had classes back in CP who works there. he's real cool an its good to see again an work with him.
Here's the meat of the topic now...
Goodness, work sucks. I'm hoping maybe when i get used tot his 9-5 schedule and actually start doing something useful, that it'll not be as bad. but right now im going through some ridiculous training...
first 2 days was jus plain ol sittin on a chair for 8 hours doing jack. couldnt go around web surfing on the laptop they gave me cuz it'll look bad on me if the boss finds out. and the boss randomly checks up on us, "doing nothing"...
lately i finally got some training lectures recorded on the computer that i have to watch and its been just 6 hours of watching training videos all day. and most of the stuff dont even make any sense and jus seems kinda useless. all in the all the job kinda sucks. everyday i come in from work im beat and worn out. dont got the energy to do anything. all i wanna do is watch TV for a lil bit then head to sleep cuz of the headache from all the information overload and sitting. yes sitting is stressful. its lik sitting in an airplane on a 12 hour flight with nothing to do really, its boring and extended boredom = stress for me. i'd rather do some productive work than do nothing on my ass.
all these bad things aside, there were some interesting lectures where i learned more about the business aspect of the company and their product and the type of problems they look to solve. im sure things will turn around once i actually finish training and do some real work.
other pluses, the work environment, although its a cubical, theres no real strict schedule, i can go out whenever i want really for lunch as long as im not busy and stay out for 1-2 hours. eventually after training i can work at home alot too. i'll be able to work about 3-4 days of the week at home if i want. another plus was there's a guy name K_ i had classes back in CP who works there. he's real cool an its good to see again an work with him.
Saturday Night, Naturally High Value
*More on J_S_ going on with K_ G_ an C_. Guy naturally high value due to market.
Ok so here is the meat body of the night.
Haven't been out in awhile, so its K_, C_, G_, an J_S_.
Went out to baltimore, federal hill. we were basically jus chilling bar hopping. J_S_ seems pretty outgoing an all night he been jumping at girls grinding on them. but what was interesting to me was how in the beginning of the night all these girls kept opening him. at first i thought these girls knew him but, after asking i found out he didnt kno any of them. thats funny as hell. he got it so easy. i figure he's naturally more high value than most other guys in the normal market of girls. he's white, tall, an i think he won some prom prince throughout school so his looks helping him out alot too.
other than the girls talkin to me, while i was in line at a bar, J_S_ was right behind me an towering over me as usually an when i finally got up to the bar, the guy got his order taken ebfore mine, i was lik wtf? maybe i shoulda been out spoken or something? just one of those perks of being white i guess.
all this jus reinforces the fact that everyone isnt equal off in gaming. people like me, short asian guys gotta work alot harder for the attention that people lik J_S_ naturally get walking into the bar. but whatever, i knew all this already, but it was interesting experiencing it first hand saturday night after being out of the game for so long.
jus gotta man it up. dont cry about it, live with it.
Ok so here is the meat body of the night.
Haven't been out in awhile, so its K_, C_, G_, an J_S_.
Went out to baltimore, federal hill. we were basically jus chilling bar hopping. J_S_ seems pretty outgoing an all night he been jumping at girls grinding on them. but what was interesting to me was how in the beginning of the night all these girls kept opening him. at first i thought these girls knew him but, after asking i found out he didnt kno any of them. thats funny as hell. he got it so easy. i figure he's naturally more high value than most other guys in the normal market of girls. he's white, tall, an i think he won some prom prince throughout school so his looks helping him out alot too.
other than the girls talkin to me, while i was in line at a bar, J_S_ was right behind me an towering over me as usually an when i finally got up to the bar, the guy got his order taken ebfore mine, i was lik wtf? maybe i shoulda been out spoken or something? just one of those perks of being white i guess.
all this jus reinforces the fact that everyone isnt equal off in gaming. people like me, short asian guys gotta work alot harder for the attention that people lik J_S_ naturally get walking into the bar. but whatever, i knew all this already, but it was interesting experiencing it first hand saturday night after being out of the game for so long.
jus gotta man it up. dont cry about it, live with it.
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