Dunno What to Make of It

yesterday went out balling with some friends and K_ was there. C_ was telling him about how we weren't on the best of terms with one of another. we talked about it and i basically just told him that i didn't appreciate how he been treating me lately. its only been 3-4 times of disrespect, most of which was when he was drunk, so the whole situation wasn't that serious. although the very last time was probably the worst and kind of ticked me off.

anyways, he was basically saying that i should of told him if he was doing something to bother me. and here i'm kind of confused whether or not i should have talked to him about this straight up, obviously bringing it out in the open with one another has the potential to resolve the problem. but, i do remember telling him sober couple weeks back that he was being an asshole to me when he was drunk, i guess i didn't present in the most understandable way, but i did put it out there.

well anyways, back to what was confusing me, what i been thinking about more in-depth of this whole situation. i've known this guy for 4-5 years, been out drinking with him so many times, got drunk with him so many times, and i don't remember anytime when he was calling me a bitch, pussy, or punk and never even did it in a jokingly manner. obviously there are people who play around an talk to their friends like "eh man, stop being a bitch" in a cool way. but as long as i've known him, nobody been talking like that in this social group at all.

its been pretty clear i thought that he has been disrespecting me and basically treating me as if i was his bitch. there really wasn't any laughs at the tables or anything, and sometimes the situation would become pretty tense from what i remember. now that being said... did i really have to tell him that i didn't appreciate the disrespect he been showing me? i think during most of these situations, he knew damn well what he was saying, even if drunk, why now? we been drunk plenty of times and always had lots of fun, not any of this bullshit.

so this man is treating me the way he wants to treat me, simple as that. i don't need to tell him, try to change him, or force him to be nice to me. i hang out with him, i do my thing, he hangs out with me, he does his thing. we treat each other every day the way we want to treat each other. if we don't, we're being fake, holding up a front. if i were to tell him that i want him to stop disrespecting me, is he just gonna be holding up a front? if so, who the hell am i chillin with.

now obviously, there are also lots of other factors such as bad moods, situations that come up, just hard times in life that will affect how people treat each other, and thats fine. thats why i was just planning on giving K_ some space to sort things out, for me to just back off and do some other things. people are always good for change, maybe he changed recently for the worse, i dunno. whatever it is, we're kinda back on good terms, i didn't wanna talk to him too much about it all and it seems like what i wrote here is like overkill. but thats just how it is.