Dejavu Surprise! I Quit Online

yea so today i jus went on tilt an spewed all my chips away. got kinda outplayed by this guy heads up 200NL. i thought it was kinda obvious. in the first several hands he was raising huge an playing real reckless an showed me his bluffs and then immediately went into super tight mode. i was losing to his super aggressive play then lost more calling his 3bets light tryin to stack him. well things went real bad an after losing the past week i jus tilted an stacked away the money i had left on carbon poker.

i gotta admit i felt horrible after that session. but at the same time i was kind of releived because i been stuck on the tables for so much the past coupel of days and now that i ran out of money, i can finally stop being stuck. i cashed out $1500 so far, cant tell if this gonna get here anytime soon. so overall the past 10 days i made $1000 profit which is good obviously.

then after that i went upstairs to drink a cup of coffee and to i just started to realize how much money was controlling my life and my happiness. it was jus so ridiculous. i turned on the tube and saw this talk show of couples cheating with each other, children with unknown parents, and women crying hysterically. they're obviously lower class americans with problems larger than mine.

im kind of happy i quit online poker again, so many bad anchors with it. poker in generally i jus dont think it for me. well i always knew this, its jus that whether or not i allow money to control my happiness, the problem of "i need money" is still there. but lately i realized it's starting to totally consume me. i've decided to jus quit online poker for good for the time being.

instead ill spend the rest of this month actually programming more regularly. so far i'm jus really amazed and interested in all the things i've learned dealign with 2d graphics. i think i learned most of the basic tools to start programming some basic games. i'll prolly be able to program a working Tetris by the end of this month. which is going to be my new goal.

so i'll jus put off poker until january's borgata winter open and from then on i'll jus try and look to solve my money problems without having so much stress and concern with money day to day.