Was a Bad Day

on a poker note, today was just another horrible session, lost about 5 buy ins. more KK vs AA's, which i find unbelievable, im starting to seriously think this site CANNOT possibly be statistically accurate. i feel like im just gambling playing on this site, normally all in with KK should be a free stack preflop, but i think over the course of this weekend, my KK's has lost me about 10 buy ins worth of money. not to mention my AA's are rarely getting any stacks or money. i can only recall 2 stacks i won with AA, which were both against KK. all this KK vs AA an vice versa is just way too ridiculous. logically if poker was the only way i plan on making a living off of, ill move down an work my way back up. but im not gonna move down right now because its just a waste of time, i have confidence in my play to know that the only way im losing money is with monster hands, i.e. sets, over pairs, etc etc. im gonna just take the risk of going completely broke staying at 100NL instead of grinding out 20NL tables all month. way i see it, if im gonna spend time playing poker before i get a job, im gonna risk it all to win big or just go broke. that said, right now i got about $850 left, ill play 100NL rest of this month or until i go broke.

i plan on two possible outcomes from this decision:
1.) i start winning again, hopefully have $2000 in my account, with about $3000 rakeback. totaling $5000, $1000 going back to debt. leaving me with $4000 which i plan on cashing out leaving me break even for the month. its a possibility that if i run incredibly good that i might keep playing on cake...
2.) other outcome would be to go bust in the next couple of days, maybe even as early as tomarrow. just get my $2100 RB, pay back $1000 in debt, and cash out $1100. this will leave my total bankroll to be about $4000. i'll prolly risk $2000-3000 on live poker. maybe $500 on a tourney this winter. (obviously a big risk being about 15% of my bankroll) from there i'll decide what to do next.

so thats whats up