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been getting back into poker lately and things are just going horrible. i seriously have no clue how i made all the money i did in poker at one point. when i got back online i was up like $1700. then lost that $1700, burrowed $2000 lost that, paid it back and cashed in another $2000. right now had to reload another $1000. im down about $4000 of the $5000 i put online. im getting about $2000 in RB so far, prolly gonna build up to $3000 by the end of the month if i dont go bust.

right now im just in a horrible run of luck. i'd say i lost prolly 10% to bad beats on rivers, but about 70% of the time i'm just in hands i'd never fold when im winning and running into bigger hands. its just insane. the rest 20% i'd would say is from tilt or bad play in general. lately i've been watching poker videos and analyzing the different playstyles these pros have. aggression is something i definitely learned to add back into my play.

i dropped down from $200 NL to $100NL all the way to $50NL. i made back like $500 at $50NL. i thought i was runnign normal again then moved up to $100NL and things are going crazy sour again. putting me into my current situation. current down like 10 buy ins at $100NL. i have total confidence in my play and can honestly say i've gotten alot better going though this losing experience and watching the videos. after watching green plastic's video and his comments i started to realize one of the reasons im losing is because all i do is play ABC poker. ABC poker playing cards cant help when all im dealt are big hands that lose. learning to earn money outside of getting good cards is something i need to work on. combined with solid reads on players, aggression can be a lethal tool.

poker aside, tomarrow hopefully is gonna be a fun day. C_'s bday is today and i was supposed to go out with him to hang out but things got late and i jus canceled that, felt kinda bad not going out on his bday. but tomarrow he has his big SBDP so im looking forward to that. hopefully gonna be alot of fun. some good times are desperately needed in this crazy rut.