College Is Over.

5/16

colleges is done. funny thing happened today, i was finishing up my last exam with the redhead in the class, i felt lik she was waiting for me to finish so she could meet me while we walk outside of class, this is what we did on the midterm... anyways... i kept looking to the left of me seeing if she was waiting for me... i was taking real long to finish and i kept waiting to see if she'll finish before me an leave... then when i finished taking the exam i just got up and ready to turn it in and the redhead finished at the same time as me. i swear this girl was waiting for me to finish my exam so she could walk out with me, anyways... i head out with her right behind me an i look at her with a smile/laugh. there are two of her friends waiting outside and from here it got real awkward, i just cant isolate this damn girl!

one of her big friend leaves the 2nd girl waiting outside and walks with her and i felt like she cockblocked me. the redhead wouldnt go/hang out with me with the big friend around, and i was being jus AFC< not being persistent enough, i jus asked to go eat wings at this place an she said she had to pack, it was a dumb excuse, she said she was leaving home two days later... i feel lik she wants to get to know me but im jus messing up, i messaged her on facebook. i have oneitis feelings over this HB6 girl, because i feel lik she's really down to earth and that i could learn alot from her.

i know i WILL NOT get into any serious relationship though, i already made a solid promise with myself on those grounds, i will need to master my social skills before any social barrier commitments.

excited to start gaming over this summer, i got financial worries, flawless making me want to play online poker again, but i hate all those long waits to cash out. i still wanna get out the house an live in AC for about a week, contemplating.

got plans to game girls with two friends from school, one called T_ and the other J_. T_ and J_ both accept the possibilities of gaming, but are real AFC, just like me, i wonder how i'll ever learn to get past my Attr sticky point. if i can get a good conversation with the redhead, i feel lik i'll learn more about it, i jus need to learn to talk to girls in general wtf!